Thursday, September 10, 2015

Why Settle for a Palapa When You Can Sit Under a Banyan Tree?

The Tree of Enlightenment by Amy Scholten

What does the word vacation mean to you? Freedom from responsibilities? A chance to relax and have fun? For me it’s an opportunity to increase my clarity and experience things more fully. It’s a clearing out process that happens when we’re in a more relaxed state and different environment. The word vacation ultimately means to “vacate” or leave behind.

This summer we vacationed on the small Caribbean island of Aruba, where my husband Brian has family roots. Once we got there, most of the cares of “real life” were blown out to sea on balmy breezes and washed away by turquois beaches. The biggest problem was a palapa shortage. Palapas are small beach shelters roofed with palm leaves. After standing in line and missing out on a palapa several times, we sought shade beneath a large, sprawling banyan tree instead. The tree sat directly behind a shelter where a young native couple sold tours and water activities to tourists.

With its multiple layers, bidirectional roots, and branches reaching into the great Abyss, the banyan tree is a symbol of the self and its journey toward enlightenment. Still, we grumbled about our fate. How had life become so competitive that getting a stupid beach palapa was even a struggle? With that thought, the balmy trade winds wooshed another insult in our direction: cigarette smoke. I needed no further proof that Paradise was an illusion. I looked over at our chain smoking palapa-less neighbor glued to his computer. Paul Fussel, author of The Dumbing of America, referred to people who couldn’t put their computers and cell phones down, even on a beguiling beach, as “connectivity assholes.”

My plan was to read for a few minutes and then head to the water to get away from connectivity asshole. When I finally shifted my attention off the secondhand smoke, I noticed that the banyan tree was constantly full of birds, birds that were always eating. It would only be a matter of time before we’d be “shat” upon, I thought, hapless and palapa-less, a spectacle for our fellow tourists and fodder for their humorous vacation stories. 

As I made my way down to the water, I sensed something behind me. And then a small and gentle hand suddenly held mine. I turned around to find a little black boy in diapers, smiling at me. He greeted me in Papiamento, the native language of Aruba. I recognized him as the quiet and serene child of the native couple selling tours and water sports.  So tender was the moment that all curmudgeonly thoughts of the day faded in a twinkling. In that instant, I was overcome by a feeling of being held in the arms of a loving universe. How miraculous that a child’s innocence and unguarded heart could be so powerful, like the warm Aruban sun melting layers of ice dams that had slowly been crushing my soul.

The boy’s name was Kiko. For the next few days, I watched him and his family living and working close to nature. Kiko had great freedom for a tiny tike. He toddled down the beach by himself to explore, but always seemed to know when he had strayed too far from his parents. Fully engrossed in all his activities, he was an amazing swimmer and castle builder. Despite a dearth of toys, he never seemed bored, fussy or burdensome. His parents seemed equally serene. His father, Dawid, a tall, lanky young man with braids pulled into a small ponytail, often took the boy out on a paddleboard late in the afternoon. We eventually became friendly with Dawid and his wife Junaida. They were excited to learn of Brian’s Aruban roots.

One afternoon Dawid offered to let me borrow his paddleboard. I had seen only young people on paddleboards, and I had seen several fall off them when boats created waves. Though I felt too old and stiff to get up on one, Dawid taught me how. Awkwardly, I managed, kneeling and paddling and bobbing along into the sunset. The familiar started to shrink in the distance as the waves carried me into the vastness of an unknown ocean, challenging both my balance and my mastery of the oar. It was exhilarating and frightening to see my surroundings from an entirely different perspective. Once again I felt the universe reach out – this time through calming, caressing rays of sun that seemed to awaken an inner wisdom, focus and confidence as I navigated back to shore.

After hours in the water, I settled back under the tree to relax and read, but it was difficult to concentrate. Exquisitely beautiful and flutey-sounding bird calls kept coming from the branches above. I spent 10 minutes struggling to see what the elusive songster looked like. Suddenly, the bright orange and black bird flew down and presented himself right on my beach chair! From his appearance and song I guessed he was an oriole of some sort. Internet research confirmed that I was correct – he was a South American Troupial, a type of oriole.

The Troupial became a daily visitor, often accompanied by a bright yellow female to whom he was very attentive. I held Brian’s hand. “Two love birds in the tree and two love birds under the tree.” When Dawid, Junaida and Kiko left their station briefly, the mischievous Troupials rummaged through Styrofoam boxes of food left on their picnic table. However, they never “shat” on us.

Just as I attempted to return to my reading, a new character—a large, bright green iguana— made his debut. He too, was a “regular” who liked to pose for pictures. Two paragraphs into my book later, another “regular” caught my attention: a lanky young native man sporting long brown dreadlocks and a tri-colored Rastafarian hat. He strolled along the beach with a trail of eight multicolored dogs trotting obediently behind, bemusing many tourists.

As each day passed, Kiko, Dawid, Junaida, the singing Troupials, the posing green iguanas, the Rasta Dog Walker, and the chain smoking connectivity asshole were there on the scene. And then I realized something: we were there on purpose, one big eclectic happy family. The clearing out process had been accomplished. We felt healthy, whole and at peace, with the sun on our backs and life unfolding all around us beneath the banyan tree and beyond.


Would I go back and trade it for a palapa? Not on your life. 

Monday, February 2, 2015

You Are the Canvas


You are a canvas stretched across the frame of the Great Spirit. Your image fashioned by the paint brush of free will. Your color and texture composed of a palette of situations, relationships and choices…and sometimes fate…all unique to you, and all subject to interpretation.  It doesn’t matter if others don’t understand or appreciate your composition. You are of the Great Spirit. No matter what, you are loved.

But your worst fear is being a blank, white canvas…drab and insignificant, even when passionate crimson screams through the pores of your skin and bleeds right through your heart. Up from the depths of your soul is a bright Light that wants to shine into the jonquil sun. It is your birthright to shine, says the Great Spirit! But Light is the delicate flame of a heavenly scented candle. It blows in the winds of a world snared in its own concern and littleness. You must guard it from being snuffed out by oatmeal indifference and graying numbness.

Sometimes you’ll spin in circles or meet crossroads leading nowhere. Don’t drown in indigo tears. You’re learning. A splash of green reveals your innocence and need to grow, to ascend into opaque lavender. This need never dies, but something in you will die if it’s not fulfilled. Pick up your brush. Stretch beyond your reach. Step into a puddle of pink. Scream out to a world lulled and dulled to sleep. Make your brushstrokes memorable! “Fitting in” is a universal temptation but it pares the majestic eagle down to a gimping starling.

The child within you is an incandescent bright gold star. She knows the right shapes and colors if she’s left alone. Do not splatter random, haphazard streaks across your canvas in frustration. Remember that you are deserving of an artist of the highest order. You are the canvas.